I couldn't sleep last night. I gave up in tears at 3am and was able to get hold of my sister at while she was at work and she talked to me for an hour to calm me down. I tried to lay back down and sleep and finally got a few hours between 7 and 10. I woke up crying in pain again. I called my dad knowing I couldn't do this alone anymore. I couldn't get much out over the phone except for sobs. He understood, though, and said he would come over. He sat with me all day and listened to me cry and whine and go on about the pain and treatments. He got me to eat some cheese. He helped me clean a little. Then came the hard part for me. I asked if I could stay with him for a little while because I obviously can't do this alone. I packed a bag and made arrangements for the cats.
This is so hard for me.
Today's medications: Topamax, Doxycyline, Toradol, Percocet, Ativan, Imitrex, Neurontin
It's hard for me to keep up with what I have to take and when. I feel like there are 20 medicines on the counter with my name on them that I have to keep up with. Some are twice a day, some 4 times a day, some in the morning, some as needed, some at night, but what have I already taken??? Some are the dreaded once a week that I need so badly that I can't use until Thursday.
The pain is going down my shoulder and arm again and into my hand. I'm getting fire balls in my palm. I couldn't use scissors today and fear I am going to drop the glass I am drinking from. I am getting random spasms throughout my upper body.
I managed to make an appointment for a medical massage tomorrow at noon in hopes of it easing some of the pain.
My parents fed me a kick ass dinner and I actually ate.
Currently laying on a heating pad in my bed at my parent's house hoping I will be able to sleep tonight.
This is so hard for me.
Today's medications: Topamax, Doxycyline, Toradol, Percocet, Ativan, Imitrex, Neurontin
It's hard for me to keep up with what I have to take and when. I feel like there are 20 medicines on the counter with my name on them that I have to keep up with. Some are twice a day, some 4 times a day, some in the morning, some as needed, some at night, but what have I already taken??? Some are the dreaded once a week that I need so badly that I can't use until Thursday.
The pain is going down my shoulder and arm again and into my hand. I'm getting fire balls in my palm. I couldn't use scissors today and fear I am going to drop the glass I am drinking from. I am getting random spasms throughout my upper body.
I managed to make an appointment for a medical massage tomorrow at noon in hopes of it easing some of the pain.
My parents fed me a kick ass dinner and I actually ate.
Currently laying on a heating pad in my bed at my parent's house hoping I will be able to sleep tonight.
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